To spilt milk and coffee cups =)

Fitzy and Brandy my babys <3>

Dont let life get you down.

Shit happens lol but youll live... hopfully lol. I have god news. iv been in contact with Tyler, he has a blog now
http://deadtoher.blogspot.com/2009/07/for-my-girl.html
check it out. maybe we can all convince him to come back down!

Love u

~Autumn<3

A shout out to an old friend....Who should make a blog =)

I love u but you better make a god damn blog so i can vent at you! i know you have the time!!! DONT LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT!


....Yes we all have blog names...


....No im not going to make one for you... MAKE IT URSELF LAZY ASS....



Yess im most happy you moved back to toronto... no im not happy ur so far away in toronto tho...

......I hope we have classes together.. =)

Love love love you....

I guess we should let people know who we are talking about hu.....

Well shes a looser =p...

No no i joke...shes cool, we will come up with a name and get her all bloged up=p

CHECK OUT THIS BLOGG, ITS HERS! www.sageatanalltimelow.blogspot.com

Love

~Autumn<3

Its been a while.

I know i havnt writen in so long but i felt i had nothing to vent about. Now Tyler is gone i have so much to say, so much to cry about. I know he is alright but i still wont get to see him, i know the people reading this probly dont want to listen to me rant about my boyfriend so ill get to my next topic.

Why we hurt ourselves.

Most of us dont hurt ourselves for attention, we do it for other deeper reasons. If you catch your dad cheating on your mother and you have no body to talk to about it, it hurts and it builds up inside, so you take it out on yourself, its realy not your fault though!! But it still hurts and you still do it. No one can stop you, its your own choice......

Love

Autumn<3

So whats the proplem if i dont do goodbyes?

With so many things going on its gard for me to see clearly, i may miss something important. I really need to stop and take a breath so i can catch up. Its seems as if ive missed a year. Tyler keeps telling me i need to look at the glass half full, but i cant help but to see it half empty. I dont know what im going to do anymore. Everything came crashing down and now it seems im holding myself together to keep from falling apart. Even this paragraph dosnt make any sence, its all just words jumbled together.

Just wanted to write so that all the people on here dont think im dead. Love you guys you make my life =) Hope to see y'all soon!


Life sucks, and than you die,
Yeah i should br so lucky.


Love hurts

~Autumn<3

So life isnt at all what i expected.

Thats really all i had to say. Nothing more on the subject. I think i want to write a book, yes that sounds wonderful.

I met someone a few days ago, a very nice boy. He said somthing, somthing i never expected to hear. He told me this
: Life is short, even for us, but its not realy life we live for, its love. Without love, there is no life and vice versa.
His logic made me stop and look at what i was taking for granted, at who i was taking for granted. See his love is much more complicated than mine, ive got it easy.

He hase to go pretty soon, which will make a good friend of mine really sad. I hope he comes to visit again, im gonna miss those huge blue eyes =)

Love love love

~Autumn<3

So i have returned

Although i have nothing to say, i just wanted to get caught up on everyone. Hello to you all. Sorry i have been away so long. Looks like i missed a lot =p

love

~Autumn<3

Don't change for me.

so it's the weekend, woot =) Satureday to be exact. I don't have much to do, im chillin with Marina right now, shes gonna write her blog when im done. So this whole week was pretty great. I think Tyler is going to ask me out =) Im excited if he dose. We pretty much spent every waking minute together this week. So iy would be nice to make our relationship officiall.

I went to a dance off on friday. It was fun, my feet hurt though. But its all good. I BEAT SASHA AND NATALIE, those bitches think thier better than me HA, i had marina there cheering me on =) love you hun bun.

Thats about it for me, nothing that exciting has come up...... What you don't belive me???? OKAY OKAY FINE i'll tell you!! JESUS,........Nahh i change my mind, i don't want to tell you =p Its not nice to kiss and tell yah know

Love Love Love

~Autumn<3

I can finaly relax =)

Im happy to report that Tyler and Jacob are back to normal. Thank you so so much Riley for talking to Jake=) Your a lifesaver. Tyler is talking to me again WOOOOO thats very very good. We spent Valentines day together =) that was fun. He got me a pink stuffed kitten<3<3<3 He is adorable. I like having a Valentine. We stayed home on Valentines day this year, he saied that he felt bad for ignoring me, and he wanted to make up for lost time. He really is wonderfukll. Im so glad i have him.

Today is FAMILY DAY wooo. i acctually like family day, my grandmd Soyala, is here today!! I frigin love my grandma!! She rocks. I got a little wooden cat from her, she saied someone in her village carved it for me, she talkes about me and my brother all the time. My brother got a little wooden bird. Its awsome =) she brings us stuff like this everytime she visits. I miss her so much sometimes, shes like 58 yerars old now. Ohh and she dost speak a lot of english.

Well i shall tell you a little mor of how Riley got Tyler and Jacob talking to me again... but not here <.< >.>

Love love love

~Autumn<3

Is everyone DEAD!!!!!

come on people, am i the only one writing blogs here??? NO ONE HAS WRITTEN ANYTHING.... I feel so alone =( COME ON COME ON COME ON!!!!! WHAT THE HELL PEOPLE....


Just thought you would all like to hear my two-sence =p

Love love love

~Autumn<3

Where are you, and im so sorry....

I miss you too much, way to much. I need you back. I want to be back in your arms, where i belong. Please come back to me, i know you feel it to, this unbreakable bond we share.....

Good Evening! Wow monday... i hate mondays, a lot.... Marina stayed over all weekend, we had fun having adventures. Didnt do to to much, you know just chilled. I dont have verry much to write today =( Im just not that interesting. Oh well maybe tomorro. I should at least have somthing to say. Valentines day is comming up, Hope you peoples got a valentine, the day is no fun if you dont have someone special to share it with. I hope i get my someone. I really really hope so...

Love is in the air...

~Autumn<3

Good Morning Toast!!

Its a nice day out today and im in a pretty good mood. Marina slept over last night and im most likely going to end up at her house tonight =p. We had fun lol. Did lots of retarded shit. Marina fell down the stairs in my building, she is a dipshit XP. We are still half asleep, but my mom woke me up cuz i had to take out Fitzy, my Alaskan Malamute. When Marina comes over she has to bring her dog, Brandy, shes a golden retrever. But Fitzy and Brandy are in loooove <3 they are sooo cute together.

Im EATING TOAST THIS MORNING!!! and i like never eat toast, its pretty frigin good =p. Im not going to let stupid people ruin my day. Im going to bake more carrot muffins, Cuz they solve everything =)

Well i might write more later or just get it all on Marinas blog, yea check it out, she is one of my followers, SO FOLLOW HER TO CUZ SHE WANTS TO FEEL LOVED <3

Love to all my minions

~Autumn<3

My arms get cold in February air!!!

Yea it was pretty damn cold out today. I didnt do to to much, school sucked, home sucks, same shit. Marina is over and we made her a blog =) Horay for me gettin people to join our blogging fun =P Marina is the greatest =) WE BAKED MUFFINS!!!!!! MMMM CARROT MUFFINS!!!!

Kay i think Tyler is getting a little better, we had a conversation today!! Im so happy, all i want is the normal Tyler back. No im going to admit somthing that i have been denying for a long time, but i know its true..... i think i might be in love with Tyler Miller =S ......*Marina gasps* lmao. I know I know i can't beleve it ether. But yea. =p

What im doing now.... Well im talking to Tyler (Rileys friend) Cuz i stole his e mail from her cuz he souds awsome. Marina and i are eating muffins and Talking about boys =p I realy want a milkshake. thats all

LOVE TO ALL

~Autumn<3

this is my personal nightmare

its getting worse each day instead of better, tyler is completely ignoring me to the point of him not even looking at me. riley iI realy need you to talk to jacobJacob. please.                                          ~autumn<3

I Don't Need You To...

Fix me, cuz im way past broken

Help me, cuz your help always hurts

And most off all i don't need your love.


Today was a pretty awfull day, i would rather go back to being bored. Tyler and Jacob showed up today, and when i asked them where they were Jake ignored me and Tyler argued that it was none of my business. I told him i was his best friend and i was concerned but he didn't listen, he said it was none of my concerne and walked away. Tyler isn' the type to do that, so this means somthin wrog happened. Riley i wish you were heare, Jacob wont listen to anyone but you, i know i know sorry. But im just verry worried about Tyler and him hurting someone =s

I know they will be back to normal sooner or later, well at least i hope

Ohh well...

Lov y'all

~Autumn<3

Nothing, nothing, and more nothing...and HAPPY BIRTHAY

Geuss what happened yesterday....NOTHING! Woo friken hooo. Im so fucking bored i acctually want to go to school. Ohh well theres only one more day in this hell hole of a house >< I hate this appartment its small and stupid!!

Matty and Paula are being bitches and still spreading rumars about me, gaylords. =p ohh well i can deal with the rumars. what i cant deal with is that Jacob, Tyler and Marcus are still missing>< WERE THE FUCK DID THEY GO! Im acctually a little worried and i think i should look into thier wereabouts soon.

TO my Favoritest Riley!!
Tommoro is you birthday!!!! i had to write this today because i may not get to tommoro =P SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!! I miss u so much and im visiting you very VERY soon, sooner than you may think, i may come down on your birthday and we can have a little party of our own =)Well i love yea hun bun and i cant wait to give you your present =p

Love y'all

~Autumn<3

I can't help it if you look like an angel

Can't help i wanna kiss you in the rain so come feel this magic ive been feeling since I met youcan't help it if there's no one elseI can't help myself.

I am in love with this song! It makes my life, its perfect <3><><><

Ill stop rambling now =)

Love you all

~Autumn<3

In my world...

everyone owns a tutu and like to spin, nobody makes loud noises, and i dont want to smack people.

In my world boys are smart and respect girls, and going out is like wicked awsome. Everyone would be with the person the really like and no one is jelious. My world is simple see, i just want things to go smoothly =) is that so much to ask for

To my dear mother

I wish you would go die sometimes. and i wanna make it happen. But i would never do that, because as much as i hate when u say u do these things to protect me because you love me, i know its true, in the back of my head i allways agree. I know your always there even when i make it seem like your not. I just wish i could talk to you more and its not your fault i cant, its mine and im sorry. Im sorry for all those times i wished you werent my mom and for all the times i said my problems were your fault. Im sorry i made you feel guilty. i love you soo much you mean everything to me and i want you to be happy.
I love you mommy <3

~Autumn<3

Forget about the past, live life in the now!

HELLLLOOOOOO!!!!!
Im frigin tired, i think everyone is. Im sorry for not writting over the weekend but i can only write when my mom isnt home and she was home all weekend because my grandmother came over. I frigin love my grandmother shes awsome=) My weekend wasnt very good tho. I had some boy troubles. The boys down here are violent its rediculious! First Jacob pushed me in snow, then Tyler mad snow from a tree fall on me, then Jacob pushed me again, then all of them ganged up on me and Shelly and threw us down the hill. I have a few brusis but ill live. It was fun until Shelly started fighting with Mark and ruined it all.
WTF im so dissapointed at you, you make me want to scream. Just thought you had to know i will be talking to u tonight

Love you

~Autumn<3

Dance dance dance dance dance!

HEYYYYY
Im having a wonderfull day =) whick is good news seeing how it dosnt happen to often. I am lovin life right now. Its all good =) Karly and I are going to see The Unborn tonight!!!! Fuck i realy wanna see that movie. It looks good. Today at school we sat on top of the gay portable and got yelled at it was so funny Mr Bahjah had a spaz lol
Ahh fucking Jacob wont leave me alone because he knows who im talking to >< I swere im gonna punch this kid out if he dosnt shut the fuck up. Tyler wont talk to me cuz im making Jacob misruble by talking to "Riley" =p Fuck man thay are so annoying.
IM GOING TO A DANCE THIS WEEKEND!!!! Sarah is making me come to her big dance class end of the year recitle dinner thing. Its tonight at like 8 till 11 I LOVE TO DANCE. Ahh u have to dress up for this so im wering a dress that my aunt sophi got me. its hot i love it. its like white and it sweys when i spin =) i think theres somthing wrong with my mom. today she gave me $50 and i was like what is this for? she pause then said uhhhhh go get ur nails done or somthin i was like wtf okay???

Riley
Hi hun! I think that u should! I LOVE U AND AM SUPPORTING U
CAPS IS CONTAGIOUS WATCH OUT!
xoxoxoxoxoxox

~Autumn<3

Hey There Chikita!

I was just talking with some of the guys!! OMG ther are so funny. They are all on crack and have no idea. Im happy i have this blog to tell all this and they dont know about tit =) Well i have a crush on someone =p I feel like a child it so bad. Im so falling hard for him. His name is Kenny and he is sooooo sexifull =p
Anyway now that that news is out i can talk about more importan things. Like any clubs im going to. RIELY u need to get your ass down here to go to blood rave with me im soooo lonely. Jacobs been a bitch since you left and that makes tyler a bitch whick makes Dylen a bich and so on.

Riley
Babe i miss you!!!! Get ur ass down here! Love yayhh hun
AND U ARE SO WEARING A DRESS!! U WILL LOOK HOT! TALK TO YOU SOON TIME!!!

Juliet
Keep pushing the dress!!!!!!!!
Lmfao

~Autumn

Today is only another day, so why stop now?

If you get tired of life, do you not kill yourself?
If you get tired of someone, do you nor rid of them?
If you just get tired, do you not sleep?
But why?
Can you not fight that erge (<--I cant spell )? Are you not strong enough to or ar you just to lazy? Well see thats the problem, your to lazy. Get the fuck up and do somthing with your gay ass life and stop complaining to me about it! Fuck i hate it when you do this. I wish you could want to be with me, and i wish you want to make me happy. But that wont happen will it. Because today is not fair, maybe tomorro, which i doubt or the next day, but i can wait see. Because im not one to hate life. When i dance my problems go away, so thats what i do, dance.

To Riley
I agree with Juliet, you should were a dress!! You would look so hot =) and you know it (Please dont bite me =) i love you

To Juliet
I LIKE CREEPERS THEY MAKE MY LIFE!!! You have to make her were tha dress cuz she will look hot =)

~Autumn<3

WOOT a Blog.. i feel special!!

HI
This is to the few people who shall read this. love y'all!! thanks for your support and everything. I hope to vent a lot on here so please forgive the foul language. Thanks so much again. OMG and thanks to Riley!! Who showed me the ways of the Blog =) and she told me to thannk Juliet for showing her. So thank you juliet for showing her so she could show me =)
I like blogging and i hope to post things as often as i can. I will keep you all posted on how my "pack" is doing too, lol

Thanks again
~Autumn~ <3