Climb Up;; See the Light;;

Im not sure what has come over me as of late. I have been so tired. And just down right depressed. It seemes no one blogs anymore. Im alone here. Not that that is a problem. I dont know where i belong. I wish i knew, but that is something you learn when you realize who you are. I see that i have fallen from grace here, im off my high horse, and this is reality. I realy just want to go back to how it was, to go home, but home isnt there, Im practicaly lost inside. Although i have indeed lost my mind, i have not lost my dignity.

I know my posts havnt been making sense at all, but that is just me, writing the emotions that flow out of my fingertips. It is my way of venting, other than the occasional going out and killing something. I have recently taken up smoking. I know I know. Why Nora, you always tell everyone NOT to smoke. Yah well shit happens. Deal with it.

Some people have recently been trying to make my life a misurible hell. To you, you guys know who you are. GO DIE, befor i do it for you. I know EVERYONE reading this is wonderin, what happened to fun lovable Nora. Well guess what, she died. For now i guess. Maybe and hopefully not forever. I want her back to you know. You all think this has something to do with Tyler Miller. well it dosnt. It has EVERYTHING to do with tyler miller. Well maybe not everything.

So we had a fight. And as most of you may know how Shawna and Jacob ALWAYS fought (sorry guys its true) Tyler started to do the same. And as you may know. The are visious. Im not sur where it all started, it just did. So now, were in a fight, and Sage is helping me through it a lot. Same With Arielle and Shawna, and Kenzy, and Jake,.... somewhat. Well im am so Hacking tired. But i cant go to bed, i have to go out to some random meeting in th middle of no where. You all know how that gets....

ANYWAY. hope to clime out of this depression soon guys. I like writing happy thoughts, if I had any...

Im barely hanging on...

Im broken up, deep inside. Im torn into pieces.




You wont get to see the tears i cry.

Your not the only one to feel hurt.

So much for my happy ending.

I make the same mistakes over and over.

Broken inside.

Lost inside.

I cant find my dreams

Im loosing my mind.

Ive fallen from grace.

Dont try to tell me what to say.

I still have fears.

Dont judge me like that.

I dont know where i belong...

Were i belong........

If...

If this was my room, it would be your hell. This would be your fault. If this had been me, what would you have done? Not go to my funaral? What if it was me? Would you even care. You say you just might have, If only you were there.... Maybe i loved you maybe i didnt, I guess now you wont know. And it is your fault isnt it? Just tell them, you know who they are. You know what they will do if they find out its you. So why not just give it up, Its not likeyour here. Ill just sit her in sorrow, and drown in my tears.

Now this here is me. Traped behind glass.

Stuck inside the mirror, my firt mistake, now my last.

You know that im hurting,

You can see it plain as day.

You wont do a thing about it,

Because you dont know what to say.

Now an appology would nice,

In one word or in two,

i dont think you would do it,

because belive me i know you.

Just leave me alone now, honestly tou dont care

i just want to go home now,

but home just isnt there.

Im lost within the shadows,

im lost withing the light.

Im lost without you,

and i have given up the fight.

Dont call me anymore

just leave me alone,

I will block your calls

I wont pick up the phone.

This is my end,

and your not in it,

I will break and i will bend

But will never admit it.

I say it all the time...

Really I do. It never means its true. You have to belive me still, because there is no way of getting the truth out of me now. Theres only so many pills you can down, theres only so much blood you can loose. Why cant i do just enough? All i get in the end are scars, and bad memories. Cant i take the easy way out? Or dose fate hate me so much, that she wont let me... Fuck you fate.

I say im fine, and i never mean it, I say I'll be okay, and I never will be. Dont wait up for me if I dont come home. Dont set a place for me at the table. Just forget i was there in the first place. I think thats possible. To live as if I never have. If I could just slip away into nothing, and no one would be hurt.

I know this makes no sence. And it is quite stupid, why would someone write shit like this on here you ask. Well i have no where else to go. In a life with nothing, and no one to tell. You can write it out, and hope that one person reads it, and maybe that person understands. And maybe you'll get through to them. Dont choose this path. If I could have, I would have chose straght instead of going backward. In the cave of lies, the truth is your light. Use it and find your way out. No truth surrounds me, i have no light. Im stuck in this god awfull cave, dark, damp, and lonely.

Don't drag me with you. Im not worth the fight..

I hope you got what you wanted,

Was ripping my heart out part of your plan?