Really I do. It never means its true. You have to belive me still, because there is no way of getting the truth out of me now. Theres only so many pills you can down, theres only so much blood you can loose. Why cant i do just enough? All i get in the end are scars, and bad memories. Cant i take the easy way out? Or dose fate hate me so much, that she wont let me... Fuck you fate.
I say im fine, and i never mean it, I say I'll be okay, and I never will be. Dont wait up for me if I dont come home. Dont set a place for me at the table. Just forget i was there in the first place. I think thats possible. To live as if I never have. If I could just slip away into nothing, and no one would be hurt.
I know this makes no sence. And it is quite stupid, why would someone write shit like this on here you ask. Well i have no where else to go. In a life with nothing, and no one to tell. You can write it out, and hope that one person reads it, and maybe that person understands. And maybe you'll get through to them. Dont choose this path. If I could have, I would have chose straght instead of going backward. In the cave of lies, the truth is your light. Use it and find your way out. No truth surrounds me, i have no light. Im stuck in this god awfull cave, dark, damp, and lonely.
I do understand you. I also do what you do say im fine and okay, but I don't think I will every be either. I wish I could run away. but since I don't really want the police after me I can't. and since I'm 16. but hell do I want out. sorry that was alot of my shit on your thing. but I do understand.
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